Miserable

Its been a long time since I've logged in to update this blog.. I was questioning myself again..!!

Was having insomnia throughout the entire week and question keep popping out from my mind... why ? why what? I myself can't even answer.. things and situation has made me into this zombie mode.!!

My past have been like a constant flash back these days. I've been having images of my past and thinking what I should focus for my present and start plan for my future. But what is my present? Career? Family?

Seems like everything is a need for me to stay focus on. Career is important for me as this is where it provides me income in order to provide for my 2 boys. Apart from that being in the Advertising industries really gives me less opportunity to spend time with my boys needless to say about my parents nor family.

I'm trying very hard to balance my working life and my personal life. But the pressure given is really hard to absorb. My role in the company becomes important recently as I was promoted to a management post, which means I've to bear more responsibilities in problems solving.

Boss is not supportive at all, everything he wants to be in control. Then what should I really do?

How I wish I could just switch myself off and just sit back relax and spend time with my family. I think this will make me feel more happy...