Food and Goodies

Foods is one of the method used by me to keeps a smile on everyone's face happy smilling in my family. My boys enjoys my cooking over to food purchased over the counter.

Mee Jawa - a local delicacies (potatoes, tofu, pinch of lime, fried crackers, hard-boiled egg and spicy curry sauce with noodles)

Pandan Chicken Wings - one of the boys favourite (marinate with ginger, onions and spices)

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Happiness??

Happiness is a broad term used. Everyone and anyone would probably have different opinions towards happiness. For the poor, happiness may bring meanings of having proper meals and a shelter above their heads. For the younger generation, having fun and games will mean happiness. For a couple, love will mean happiness or most probably mean everything to them. For me, seeing both of my boys growing healthy and being able to provide for them makes me happy. I'm not a demanding person who request for everything to be perfect.. I only demand for basic needs... Food, Shelter and a men who loves, cares and understands me... And today.. I could tell the world that.. I've found the Mr. Right.. who provide all these for me...

Pandemic - Covid -19

Covid-19 its a serious virus that took a lots of human's life in the entire world. The numbers of passing was incredibly scary especially during the start of Covid-19 back in year 2019, where the virus started of in China. Lots of lives has been taken away, regardless young or old. The situation became uncontrollable and people around the world started getting panicked. Most countries opted to locked down in order to avoid more lives being sacrifice, this include my country - Malaysia. I remembered before the locked down which took place back in March year 2020. My family and I had the opportunity or should I say we are lucky enough to had spent our last vacation before the locked down took place in Perth, Australia. We were there for family trip visiting my sister and her family for close to a month. Upon returned, the Malaysia government announced that due to the seriousness of the virus and after much consideration, they took a precaution to locked down Malaysia entirely. This includes forbide foreigners and Malaysians to travel in and out of the country. Schools, government sectors and most industries were closed and new norm started off - being homebound. Students started their education via online - Zoom and Google Classroom. People are restricted to go out from their homes with a maximum boundaries of only 10KM radius. Everything was affected, even grocerries shopping had became from purchasing via physical stores to online purchases. The 1st locked down was close to 3 months. Economy was badly affected and a lot of people lost their job - leading to problems feeding their families. Its such a mightmare recalling all these incident. Even after close to 2 and the half years, the virus still exist. And people now have to live with the covid-19 virus

Stages in Life

There's many stages in life that every human being will tend to go thru. As an infant to toddler, toddler to kids, kids to teenagers and teenagers to adults. This is a definite stages that every one will face and experience. I would say that, the experience of every human being will be different as we grow up in different environment and different up bringing my different families believes. When I was young, I do not understand why my parents restricted everything that both me and my sister from doing anything dangerous or seems dangerous to them. Both of us was being pampered by my parents and whatever we would love or want to do they will always be there with us. I hated it most of the time as I find that, I do not have any freedom by doing what I want alone and parents will always be there. Despite all that, even until today I still do not fully understand my parents especially my mum. She is a very kind person and often offer helps to friends and relatives around her, and when comes to me she is very strict and believe or not being an adult - married with 2 kids she stills plays an important role in my life - controlling and nagging me all the time. My perception towards my mum is - why is she always treats me like this where as towards my sister she doesn't nag at all. Is is because I'm living in the same house with her gave her the opportunity to do so? Or because she loves me that's why she wants to be in control of my life? Questions will keep popping up none stop where I will still wonder and wonder none stop... But today everything changed! Mum and I had a very long conversation in the car while I was driving her to work. I knew mum was very unhappy for the past weeks that I started my investigation towards her wanting to find out what had happened. She poured out all her sorrowness in her telling me that how helpful she was to her relatives ended up that did not appreciate her instead they ignore her totally. This has been carrying on for almost 6 years and she just put it in her heart without telling anyone how hurt she was. Like I said I know my mum well enough and understand that she is a helpful person. But how much can a person help? Yes MUM! I know that this question refers to me as well... Mum has been telling my sis that she worry about me the most. As she often says that how much can she help me as one day she will begone.. but mum... I know from the word you expressed out is hurtful but deep down you wanted me to be strong to stand on my two feet. I know that you do not like my attitude by relying too much on a person. But do you also know that until today I was really hurt for what has happened througout those years? I always wanted to be strong and I always wanted to help you up on your work but.. I'm not a robot and I still need to caters my needs for the company that I'm committed too.. I know what you expect from me mummy.. I will try my best and not to disappoint you!! This is my promise to you mum.. I love you....!

Bad Luck!!

This week seems like a bad luck to me.. Monday.. supposingly have a few candidates to turn up to office for interview.. ended up most of the candidates postpone the interview and ended up only 2 attended. After that I received a phone call from my hubby saying that the management for our housing area has requested a bond if we are conducting Renovation. I've called up the person in-charge and argued with them. Gosh.. why people can be like that where the responsibilities was not taken and force us to take action to solve the problem? Then on Tuesday, my boss was supposed to talked to me regarding my promotion and increment.. worst was I got scolded just because I proceed to inform my admin to purchase another chair which only cost RM172.00. Hello.. a chair is meant to be used for new comers and it will last for at least 2 to 3 years. Apart from that, he prolonged and refused to talked to me about the increment and inform that he will speak to me on Wednesday. So on Wednesday.. I had some candidates that supposed to come in for an interview. Because of dad's car which overheated for no reason. I was stuck at USJ 1 and was forced to postpone all my interviews to Thursday and Friday. Thank God that my hubby managed to come in time to exchange the car with me and I only managed to reach office at 1030am. Then mum started calling, asking me for a favour to drive down to Damansara Utama to picked up some documents for her client, which I did after that I just left and picked Isaac up and went straight home. I was so exhausted by then and managed to take my dinner at only 8pm. Today, 22nd July 2010 (Thursday) it was another bad luck day for me.. As I was driving mum and Isaac to Subang Jaya, my Kia Rio turns to start overheating and forced me to stop at Sunway. Was so concerned about my candidated being postpone I called my hubby again for him to rescue me. Everything was fine and I was lucky enough to stop by the housing area and managed to get some water to cool and fill up the car. We were stucked there for close to 20 minutes, and I managed to drop Isaac at Auntie Jenny's place. While I was on the way to mum's office to drop her off, my car was started giving me problem and I was forced to stop in front of those shop houses at SS18 Subang Jaya. When hubby reached, I finally exchange car with him again and rush to send mum to office. By the way I was on my way to the office, hubby called and informed that the car was fine when he took over and did not overheat at all... Gosh.. what a bad day where 2 cars died on me just the different of 1 day. Hopefully everything will go smoothly and finger cross no more unpredict accidents or situations going to occur on me again!!

Miserable

Its been a long time since I've logged in to update this blog.. I was questioning myself again..!!

Was having insomnia throughout the entire week and question keep popping out from my mind... why ? why what? I myself can't even answer.. things and situation has made me into this zombie mode.!!

My past have been like a constant flash back these days. I've been having images of my past and thinking what I should focus for my present and start plan for my future. But what is my present? Career? Family?

Seems like everything is a need for me to stay focus on. Career is important for me as this is where it provides me income in order to provide for my 2 boys. Apart from that being in the Advertising industries really gives me less opportunity to spend time with my boys needless to say about my parents nor family.

I'm trying very hard to balance my working life and my personal life. But the pressure given is really hard to absorb. My role in the company becomes important recently as I was promoted to a management post, which means I've to bear more responsibilities in problems solving.

Boss is not supportive at all, everything he wants to be in control. Then what should I really do?

How I wish I could just switch myself off and just sit back relax and spend time with my family. I think this will make me feel more happy...

Happenings around us!

Today I took sometime to browse thru some of my friends blog, photo albums and their status updates makes me realised that there's so many things have been happening around me without much notice. I started questioned myself that why majority of us are fallen into the trap "marriage"? Most of my friends were seen happily married, but close to half of the number of couple was never been seen like what we always expected in fairy tales - living happily ever after! Instead they ended up seperated going or heading to their own lives. The worst is those involved already have kids. Arguments always been heard! Men will always point out that the fault is always their wives, as for women we will often blame in on our husbands. Where are those sweet memories during our courting days goes?? Life always changes as we aged. We either become wiser or else we would start pushing the blame to others. Marriage suppose to be seen as a couple starting their own family and living in peace and harmony. Does anyone on earth knows the meaning of FAMILY? F - Father A - And M - Mother I - I L - Love Y - You If a broken marriage occurs where there's kid involve, family means nothing to them already. For me, it took me years to take the courage in making decision to part with my ex-hubby. Kids always comes first, I would always consider them as my priority in making any decision. But chances was given out too many times, and yet he did not appreciate. I gone thru everything all by myself. Pregnancy, labour.. you named it... I was all alone.. Even on my confinement I had to look after my 2 boys and cooked for myself.. I started questioning.. do I need him? When I do.. where is he? When I'm sad.. where is he? When I'm sick.. where is he?? This is how I learn to become independent and take care of my kids myself.. friends will normally look at you pitifully... but they won't know how much you've gone thru! Its really tough these days.. but whatever had happened is already past... we need to learn to stand firm and plan for our future.. nothing can stop us!! Friends.. do make a wiser choice and think think twice before commiting into marriage. Its not a game.. its for a life time...