Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Stages in Life
There's many stages in life that every human being will tend to go thru. As an infant to toddler, toddler to kids, kids to teenagers and teenagers to adults. This is a definite stages that every one will face and experience.
I would say that, the experience of every human being will be different as we grow up in different environment and different up bringing my different families believes.
When I was young, I do not understand why my parents restricted everything that both me and my sister from doing anything dangerous or seems dangerous to them. Both of us was being pampered by my parents and whatever we would love or want to do they will always be there with us.
I hated it most of the time as I find that, I do not have any freedom by doing what I want alone and parents will always be there.
Despite all that, even until today I still do not fully understand my parents especially my mum. She is a very kind person and often offer helps to friends and relatives around her, and when comes to me she is very strict and believe or not being an adult - married with 2 kids she stills plays an important role in my life - controlling and nagging me all the time.
My perception towards my mum is - why is she always treats me like this where as towards my sister she doesn't nag at all. Is is because I'm living in the same house with her gave her the opportunity to do so? Or because she loves me that's why she wants to be in control of my life? Questions will keep popping up none stop where I will still wonder and wonder none stop...
But today everything changed! Mum and I had a very long conversation in the car while I was driving her to work. I knew mum was very unhappy for the past weeks that I started my investigation towards her wanting to find out what had happened.
She poured out all her sorrowness in her telling me that how helpful she was to her relatives ended up that did not appreciate her instead they ignore her totally. This has been carrying on for almost 6 years and she just put it in her heart without telling anyone how hurt she was.
Like I said I know my mum well enough and understand that she is a helpful person. But how much can a person help? Yes MUM! I know that this question refers to me as well...
Mum has been telling my sis that she worry about me the most. As she often says that how much can she help me as one day she will begone.. but mum... I know from the word you expressed out is hurtful but deep down you wanted me to be strong to stand on my two feet.
I know that you do not like my attitude by relying too much on a person. But do you also know that until today I was really hurt for what has happened througout those years?
I always wanted to be strong and I always wanted to help you up on your work but.. I'm not a robot and I still need to caters my needs for the company that I'm committed too..
I know what you expect from me mummy.. I will try my best and not to disappoint you!! This is my promise to you mum.. I love you....!
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