What is marriage? Are we still living in the imagination world that believing marriage always ends in happy ending that the couple will live happily forever and ever?
Not for me, I do not believe in marriage anymore. Apart from that, marriage in all country is just a piece of paper being signed in front of witnesses as proof that they are a legally married couple. But who will know how long this marriage gonna last till? You'll be surprised that the marriage might end after few months or few years or even few days time.
I've suffered a lot. As a young teenage girl I used to dream of a happily ever after marriage, but it did not turned out as what I've expected. Even up till today I'm still doubtful on what marriage is all about and why am I landed into this situation.
I've been married for 3 years and I find that throughout the marriage life there are more sadness compare to happiness in my marriage. Hubby and I tend to argue nearly every alternate months and from there our conversation became lesser and lesser - to avoid arguments. The situation became worst as we lived apart now, occasionally we meet up during weekdays to spend time with our son.
My hubby is a very sensitive and impatient person. Anything that got on to his nerve he will start to burst, all this only occurs after he became jobless. Normally our arguments always involve financial as he is a huge spender on friends but NOT family.
He doesn't seems to care about me and the son (financially) but after moving out, my son hardly sees him because my hubby's time is all being mixed up whereby he only sleeps in the morning and wakes up at night.
With the second baby coming along, I've started to question myself "Why did I landed up into this situation?" Knowing that there is already existing problems that cannot be resolved, why on earth did I make myself pregnant again with our second baby?
Just like my first pregnancy with our son, my hubby doesn't even bother or take responsibilities to care about my feelings. Instead more and more arguments will occur due to lots of unnecessary.
What could I expect more in this marriage where he is a person who only thinks for himself and put his friends first before his family! I'm just counting on the days to go as I'll be leaving here with my son to Australia for a better life.
Will see how he will react to this and takes what pre-cautious to gain back the trust and role of a man in the house during this period. If he thinks that giving up a family is worth it, then I could say that this marriage will be an end for me and my children.
2 comments:
Sylvia, try to get a close relationship with your husband too. He doesn't want to make you unhappy, but he doesn't want to be unhappy knowing he isn't taking care of his family the way he want to. It is a difficult world and people need people. If he spends more on his friends than family, try to remind yourself that we choose our friends, not our family. If he is grouchy he is probably feeling frustration at the difficulties of this modern world of ours. You are good to remember that you have to be there for your kids and you have to take care of yourself. You do not want to take your kids away from their dad unless it is in the kids very best interest - like if he hurt them or you, or if he chooses to do something that hurts your family security. You will feel better about yourself and your decisions if you know you do everything you can to keep the promise of your marriage. That includes being there for your husband like you are there for your kids and for yourself. Maybe he would like to go to Australia with you for a new start? Probably not, I know, but I wish you the best!!!
Thanks for your comment. I know is a bit late to reply you on this. Thanks for sharing all this that you've thought for me and my kids. But just to let you know that I'm a single mother now caring for my 2 boys.
No doubt the life is difficult but I find more happiness in coping this kinda situation as he doesn't even want the boys anymore.
As for me my privilleged is my boys and my career nothing can change that and they will always be my top priority no matter what.
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